In recent developments, my kid loves when I do the fake out high five trick. "Up high. Down low...too slow!" Laughter ensues. So we do that quite often because about once a day I think to myself when I hear that uncontrollable laughter from the little human: "is there any better sound?" The answer is a resounding no. Laughter like that means life is good. It means happiness abounds in that moment. And that sound never ceases to make me smile.
There has been a downswing lately with me. Things have just been heavy. Some disappointments. Some questions I need answered that will never be answered. A lack of closure and frustrations. Also a lack of sleep and a heightened sense of "blech." Stress and some confusing health-related issues. But...tons of blessings too. My number of local friends is able to be counted on one hand, but I have non-local friends in abundance who pour into my life. They are true heart friends who love me deeply and richly and constantly.
I want everything to be behind me yesterday. And mostly, it is. But there's still...stuff. Sometimes it feels like dragging around a ball and chain even though I no longer have one.
But I look to the turtle and find hope in that fact: forward is forward. There is peace in that redundant remark for me. And peace is good for my soul. Thank you to those who see my heart for what it is-imperfect, a bit dented but open to next steps. Heart friends, thank you for your support and understanding. I need you and appreciate you more than you know.
There has been a downswing lately with me. Things have just been heavy. Some disappointments. Some questions I need answered that will never be answered. A lack of closure and frustrations. Also a lack of sleep and a heightened sense of "blech." Stress and some confusing health-related issues. But...tons of blessings too. My number of local friends is able to be counted on one hand, but I have non-local friends in abundance who pour into my life. They are true heart friends who love me deeply and richly and constantly.
I want everything to be behind me yesterday. And mostly, it is. But there's still...stuff. Sometimes it feels like dragging around a ball and chain even though I no longer have one.
But I look to the turtle and find hope in that fact: forward is forward. There is peace in that redundant remark for me. And peace is good for my soul. Thank you to those who see my heart for what it is-imperfect, a bit dented but open to next steps. Heart friends, thank you for your support and understanding. I need you and appreciate you more than you know.