The physical and emotional parts of us are so intertwined. I have come face-to-face with this reality many times since leaving my past life and dealing with what it means to truly start over from scratch.
The truth is that I was intensely unhealthy when I left my ex-husband. I was emotionally destroyed, physically exhausted and overweight. I had never been able to eat healthy food consistently after having a baby because of money, and honestly, with such an environment of name-calling and lack of support, it was hard to get motivated to change anything about myself. I remember doing a workout video and saying to him afterwards how different my ab muscles felt post-baby and his response was: that's not all that changed. I was covered in sweat, obviously making an effort to make positive changes, and that was what I got from my husband.
Exercising was hard with a newborn, and I felt like it wouldn't matter anyway. And in that life it wouldn't have. But in this life, it sure freaking matters. And I feel amazing in the last 6 months as I "graduated" from my counselor, began to focus on my eating choices and decided to make my health a priority. It has reset me in lots of areas. Everything is headed in a positive direction because my trajectory has changed. Mental, physical and emotional health are top priorities for me as part of self-care. At the end of the day, this version of me is such a better example for my kiddo. And I am happy.
The truth is that I was intensely unhealthy when I left my ex-husband. I was emotionally destroyed, physically exhausted and overweight. I had never been able to eat healthy food consistently after having a baby because of money, and honestly, with such an environment of name-calling and lack of support, it was hard to get motivated to change anything about myself. I remember doing a workout video and saying to him afterwards how different my ab muscles felt post-baby and his response was: that's not all that changed. I was covered in sweat, obviously making an effort to make positive changes, and that was what I got from my husband.
Exercising was hard with a newborn, and I felt like it wouldn't matter anyway. And in that life it wouldn't have. But in this life, it sure freaking matters. And I feel amazing in the last 6 months as I "graduated" from my counselor, began to focus on my eating choices and decided to make my health a priority. It has reset me in lots of areas. Everything is headed in a positive direction because my trajectory has changed. Mental, physical and emotional health are top priorities for me as part of self-care. At the end of the day, this version of me is such a better example for my kiddo. And I am happy.