I don't know why I do this, but it is true that some habits are extremely hard to break. I get overly confident. I think I am 100% healed, unshakable, unstoppable, ready to fall head over heels in love. And I would say I'm 90% of those things truthfully.
Occasionally though, I have a hiccup and past crud makes its way into my brain causing doubt and fear to take over. To say it is annoying does not come close to covering what it is. It is a reminder to always keep working on me. It is an encouragement to keep healing more every day. Verbal and mental and emotional abuse scars are beasts! The physical is what shocks people, but for my situation, that has been the simplest part from which to heal.
I am thankful for my faith. And I am thankful for patience in those in my life who talk me through these moments of insecurity, believing the lies even for a brief second that I'm not worth this future. Thank you. And for now I'll just keep up the good work.
Occasionally though, I have a hiccup and past crud makes its way into my brain causing doubt and fear to take over. To say it is annoying does not come close to covering what it is. It is a reminder to always keep working on me. It is an encouragement to keep healing more every day. Verbal and mental and emotional abuse scars are beasts! The physical is what shocks people, but for my situation, that has been the simplest part from which to heal.
I am thankful for my faith. And I am thankful for patience in those in my life who talk me through these moments of insecurity, believing the lies even for a brief second that I'm not worth this future. Thank you. And for now I'll just keep up the good work.